Monday, August 28, 2006
Another night @ DeViLs
I reached around Devils before 9.00pm. Didnt pay for the cover charge as usual. Py and his friends were not there yet. Cant rem what time they came but it was before the Man United match kicked off. This time we went there to celebrate Calvin's birthday. As I was the only ger there, so I asked another ger friend of mine to join me. :) Tonight music was better than the previous night I came. More of retro music. Maybe it had to depend on the crowd. And tonight is more crowded compared to the previous time. I left around 12.15am as the music sucks.
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Thursday, August 24, 2006
Don't Say Goodbye
Whenever I hear this song, someone will come to my mind. And this person doesn't not have any links with this song and this person don't even listen to mandarin songs.
Don't Say Goodbye
你无理取闹 像孩子甩开拥抱 逃开我的味道 不想要
轻易写句号 情绪话当玩笑 退到底 彼此间的底线 剩多少
Don't Say Goodbye 别一再伤害 我的爱 放任等待 你要的太多还是 我给的太少
Don't Say Goodbye 怕找不回来 我的爱 变成倦怠 能给得我都给了 爱不用说太明白 Don't Say Goodbye
你无理取闹 像孩子甩开拥抱 逃开我的味道 不想要
轻易写句号 情绪话当玩笑 退到底 彼此间的底线 剩多少
Don't Say Goodbye 别一再伤害 我的爱 放任等待 你要的太多还是 我给的太少
Don't Say Goodbye 怕找不回来 我的爱 变成倦怠 能给得我都给了 爱不用说太明白 Don't Say Goodbye
Don't Say Goodbye 我的爱 你要的太多还是 我给的太少
Don't Say Goodbye 怕找不回来 我的爱 变成倦怠 能给的我都给了 爱不用说太明白 Don't Say Goodbye(Don't Say Goodbye)
Woo Woo~One More Time (Don't Say Goodbye) Don't Say Goodbye
Don't Say Goodbye
你无理取闹 像孩子甩开拥抱 逃开我的味道 不想要
轻易写句号 情绪话当玩笑 退到底 彼此间的底线 剩多少
Don't Say Goodbye 别一再伤害 我的爱 放任等待 你要的太多还是 我给的太少
Don't Say Goodbye 怕找不回来 我的爱 变成倦怠 能给得我都给了 爱不用说太明白 Don't Say Goodbye
你无理取闹 像孩子甩开拥抱 逃开我的味道 不想要
轻易写句号 情绪话当玩笑 退到底 彼此间的底线 剩多少
Don't Say Goodbye 别一再伤害 我的爱 放任等待 你要的太多还是 我给的太少
Don't Say Goodbye 怕找不回来 我的爱 变成倦怠 能给得我都给了 爱不用说太明白 Don't Say Goodbye
Don't Say Goodbye 我的爱 你要的太多还是 我给的太少
Don't Say Goodbye 怕找不回来 我的爱 变成倦怠 能给的我都给了 爱不用说太明白 Don't Say Goodbye(Don't Say Goodbye)
Woo Woo~One More Time (Don't Say Goodbye) Don't Say Goodbye
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
A Boring Day
Is today a good day to travel? So many people are travelling today. And all came back at the end of this week. I'm so bored and nobody to talk to. Hope school will start soon and I have things to do. Can someone just chat with me? keke... =)
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Thoughts of the day
Today is only the beginning of the week and I'm already looking forward for Saturday to arrive. Saturday will be going clubbing with friends, hope there will be no last minute back out.
This afternoon, I had lunch with Irene and was asking her how she maintains a relationship for more than a decade. I guessed married life and attached life are still different. In attached life, you don't get to see each other everyday. So even both of you have conflicts, you still can don't see each other for days. But as of married life, you live together and sleep on the same bed. But there is one thing common in these two relationships and it is TRUST. The basic trust must be there.
How can to maintain a marriage for more than 5 years? Do we need to do something to spice up of marriage life? Will the couple get bored of each other as times pass? These are all my doubts I'm having. Or because I have not settled down, that is why I'm having all these doubts.
This afternoon, I had lunch with Irene and was asking her how she maintains a relationship for more than a decade. I guessed married life and attached life are still different. In attached life, you don't get to see each other everyday. So even both of you have conflicts, you still can don't see each other for days. But as of married life, you live together and sleep on the same bed. But there is one thing common in these two relationships and it is TRUST. The basic trust must be there.
How can to maintain a marriage for more than 5 years? Do we need to do something to spice up of marriage life? Will the couple get bored of each other as times pass? These are all my doubts I'm having. Or because I have not settled down, that is why I'm having all these doubts.
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Saturday, August 19, 2006
Movie on a Saturday Night
Just came back from Tiong Bahru GV Cinema. Went to watch "The Super Ex-GirlFriend" with a friend of mine. It was quite a boring but funny show. And I just simply love one of the soundtracks in this show, "Rescue Me". And I was quite surprise to see daddy bringing their kids to see the show. =)
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Rejection
Rejection from HIM
You expressed your thoughts, he treats it like a big surprise that hits him hard and tries to ignore the fact that you had always liked him. He finds tons and tons of excuses to avoid the start of the topic that he knew it would be pointless. You felt down, cried at times knowing that life was at your lowest at this point. You felt as if the world begins to turn their backs on you. You used to remember, he was the one whom you needed when you were in doubt, he was the one who pull you up when you're down. These images may not happened again. Now you asked yourself " Is there anything wrong in telling the person you like that you like him? " why must it always happen to you... why can't you be with the one you loved most.The time is way past midnight, you find that sleeping isn't that easy anymore, tossing and turning on your bed is getting frustrating. You try to get up, sit back and think of the past relationships you had. Some were meaningful, some were tragic, but in all of them, you had always put your true feelings and treasure each and every moment.You try to work, hoping that you won't think of him that often.. But then again, the more you don't want to think of him, the more of his images appeared in front of your mind. You then took up drinking, trying every means and ways to immune yourself but every morning all you'll get is hangover and make your life worse.You finally asked yourself " is it worth it? to feel so miserable for him? ' Life is always full of ups and downs, there's no person without problems in their life. Life is not about what you gain or what you lose, it's about what you had done and what you had not. In time to come, he will always remember you as a person who likes him and not just a friend, we all lives in memories every now and then. Reality is cruel, everything you hope for will not happen in reality but it's the memories that count. One day, after he had live long enough to look back to the past life he had, happy, sad moments will only be a past, a past which you had thrive so hard to reach. Although no one once will remember how much you once love him, how many things you did and prepare to do for him, I'm sure he will always remember you, just like you would remember him too... Memories, is what you need and have now. Treasure it.
Rejection from HER
The world never seems to stop turning, time never seems to take notice on someone who's struggling through life. Bearing each day with the hopes of being reached by the one he loved, the one he used to care for so much.. How he find life so meaningless and lonely now as he begins each day wondering how would it be if he had done the right thing? The people who used to stand by him weren't there anymore as he continues his journey to the undiscovered path of life. He falls easily, finding it hard to get up... or he's alone now... as he slowly pick himself up upon his feet, time never waits, passing every minute with uncertainty that he will end the same day without being tortured by fate. The self belief and his confidence are all gone now...Finally he told himself not to care for anyone else again, for he knows no matter how much he cared , no one will be there for him again... as he head towards the infinite sadness of life...- Towards the Path of Infinite Sadness and Mental Destruction of Life -"Everything aren't the same without the presence of you... Life is not about achievements but the efforts towards success. Many people give up after failures but they never look back to their mistakes. If Love is easy, people would abuse its presence and soon, it will just fade away. Sadness is only used an excuse to be left alone. Loneliness is the beginning of self-discovery as you begin to understand more and more of yourself. No one in this world will fully understand you except yourself, accept the way life is being unfolded and indeed life will be fruitful after all.Believing may just be one of the most powerful words that man had ever created. Believe in your heart when your mind starts to wonder, believe in yourself when you have non to ponder. Love is the affectionate feelings develop by 2 mutual parties over time, memories, feelings and experience unify as one. Believe in love and you will be given the greatest gift of all... love in return..
You expressed your thoughts, he treats it like a big surprise that hits him hard and tries to ignore the fact that you had always liked him. He finds tons and tons of excuses to avoid the start of the topic that he knew it would be pointless. You felt down, cried at times knowing that life was at your lowest at this point. You felt as if the world begins to turn their backs on you. You used to remember, he was the one whom you needed when you were in doubt, he was the one who pull you up when you're down. These images may not happened again. Now you asked yourself " Is there anything wrong in telling the person you like that you like him? " why must it always happen to you... why can't you be with the one you loved most.The time is way past midnight, you find that sleeping isn't that easy anymore, tossing and turning on your bed is getting frustrating. You try to get up, sit back and think of the past relationships you had. Some were meaningful, some were tragic, but in all of them, you had always put your true feelings and treasure each and every moment.You try to work, hoping that you won't think of him that often.. But then again, the more you don't want to think of him, the more of his images appeared in front of your mind. You then took up drinking, trying every means and ways to immune yourself but every morning all you'll get is hangover and make your life worse.You finally asked yourself " is it worth it? to feel so miserable for him? ' Life is always full of ups and downs, there's no person without problems in their life. Life is not about what you gain or what you lose, it's about what you had done and what you had not. In time to come, he will always remember you as a person who likes him and not just a friend, we all lives in memories every now and then. Reality is cruel, everything you hope for will not happen in reality but it's the memories that count. One day, after he had live long enough to look back to the past life he had, happy, sad moments will only be a past, a past which you had thrive so hard to reach. Although no one once will remember how much you once love him, how many things you did and prepare to do for him, I'm sure he will always remember you, just like you would remember him too... Memories, is what you need and have now. Treasure it.
Rejection from HER
The world never seems to stop turning, time never seems to take notice on someone who's struggling through life. Bearing each day with the hopes of being reached by the one he loved, the one he used to care for so much.. How he find life so meaningless and lonely now as he begins each day wondering how would it be if he had done the right thing? The people who used to stand by him weren't there anymore as he continues his journey to the undiscovered path of life. He falls easily, finding it hard to get up... or he's alone now... as he slowly pick himself up upon his feet, time never waits, passing every minute with uncertainty that he will end the same day without being tortured by fate. The self belief and his confidence are all gone now...Finally he told himself not to care for anyone else again, for he knows no matter how much he cared , no one will be there for him again... as he head towards the infinite sadness of life...- Towards the Path of Infinite Sadness and Mental Destruction of Life -"Everything aren't the same without the presence of you... Life is not about achievements but the efforts towards success. Many people give up after failures but they never look back to their mistakes. If Love is easy, people would abuse its presence and soon, it will just fade away. Sadness is only used an excuse to be left alone. Loneliness is the beginning of self-discovery as you begin to understand more and more of yourself. No one in this world will fully understand you except yourself, accept the way life is being unfolded and indeed life will be fruitful after all.Believing may just be one of the most powerful words that man had ever created. Believe in your heart when your mind starts to wonder, believe in yourself when you have non to ponder. Love is the affectionate feelings develop by 2 mutual parties over time, memories, feelings and experience unify as one. Believe in love and you will be given the greatest gift of all... love in return..
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Words and Phrases of Eternity
I chose to be smart rather than wise, for I know wise only mean you have been through a lot of sufferings in life. I rather choose the road and know what's ahead before experience it then I will have a chose to take the route or not to. The only route I chose wrongly in life is to love you, that's why I'm wise in love now..As for me, the story continues as I struggle in life, searching for things that had pass me, things that I've missed. Maybe it will take a lifetime, maybe I won't be able to find it back, for there's only one guy, which I once lived my life for. Till this day comes, I will continue to become others' passerby in their life and make them have great memories about me.. The best things in life aren't supposed to be the things you need, they can be the things you miss very much. I don't believe in fate, I don't believe in reality, I live in dreams, I live in memories, I cannot imagine if life will be good to me one day.I will never forget the guy I love, for what is shall remains and I never told him about my feelings for him.. And I don't think I will ever too. Maybe that's the only reason why he still smiled at me when we met.In this world there live a lot of different people chasing different goals in their life everyday. Sometimes we lost our way, sometimes we need someone to guide us, to encourage us when we fail, to celebrate with us when we succeed and most of all to remember us.Life would be empty without memories right?Sometimes it's strange to know the feeling when you see the person you wants to see most, the more you want to see that person, the more you will feel awkward when you see him.Have you ever wonder how he might feel?There's still many things I still don't know about, there are things which logic can't explain, theories cannot prove, which is my love for him.. sometimes I wish there's a meter which shows the love people shared between one another, maybe when that day comes he will then realize how much he mean to me......Love are deceiving, love can be blinding. Things don't get any better as they go, they seem almost impossible for me to reach. The things we used to shared aren't there anymore, the conversation we exchanged are only a matter of past. Past is a good way of hiding the sad ruthless sight of the future.Sometimes I believe that when I woke up in the morning, the first person I will see is you.. Then again, things aren't the same in life, we wait to love, wait to be loved.The only way to make me stop loving you is to hate you because the more I love you, the more pain I will suffer when u leave me... selfish may be the word which describe everything about me maybe... or is it that loving is been selfish all along?As we continue to go our different route, no one will once remember how deep I once love you, how sad I was when you rejected me, how I manage to pull myself back together again.It's been a long time since we last met, I wonder whose shoulder you are lying on this instance as I continue to think of you?There was once a person who told me " When you love someone, you must do your best to make him happy.." Somehow I never realize anything about this sentence until the day you reject me. Maybe leaving you was the only choice I've left or maybe it's just simply because I want to make you happy...People often use 'fate' to relate the things in love.. I met you because of 'fate', I lose you because of it too... but I don’t believe in 'fate'. I believe that the reason you don't like me it's because of something in me and not that we are not 'fated' at all.'Fate' is only an excuse for people to reject someone when he think she wasn't the one for him. If I have to put us in a way, I would say, " both of us were made for each other.... But we weren't meant for each other..."We all live in an unpredicted life, sometimes we can't even know when things will come, when they will go. The most beautiful things in life are the ones that are always around which u fail to notice, only to regret when they disappear... Like love...As we walk our paths in the hands of our own, little do we always knows what lies ahead of us. We are born with the feeling of senses, emotions and unexplainable thoughts. We cried at times, when we felt useless and down, when the whole world seems moving away from us. We felt happy when the things we do right, angry when all turns out in the wrong direction. Sometimes we will wonder, can we control our own emotions? Can we cry when we want to and don't when we don't feel like it? Do you know the feeling of losing the most important thing in you life? If you do, it’s what I’m feeling now..Being love is painful when you doesn't feel anything for that poor guy who tries to impress you with tons of poems and love songs. Loving someone is even more painful when you realize whatever you do for him isn't enough.Love is the second most complex creation since the creation of human. No one knows when we will love, who we will and why we will.. that's the strangest part and best part of life...we live to love.When I was younger, I wanted a boyfriend so tat I can show to off to others I too have one. When I got older, I wanted a boyfriend so tat I know I can always depend on that special someone. Now, if you ask me again I would say I want a boyfriend so that I can show him the meaning of love people had shown me throughout my life..The value of our relationships will be measured one day and only true love wouldn't mind how much it weighs.At Last, the road is long, somehow there's still a lot of undiscovered path for us to venture. Sometimes we find ourselves trapped in some unwanted situations, sometimes we cried when we are angry, when everything's not going our way. We laugh when there's joy, when we feel alright..We are what we make up of ourselves, if we worked our ways according to our hearts, there's no need to feel upset when u fail but rejoice when u succeed. In this wonderful mystery when there's no much people can understand, Life. To live once is a blessing but to have u in this blessing is a miracle! At last, "life goes on" as the wise one may say, living everyday as if there were no tomorrow. Try to enjoy the gifts of life and forget the sorrows we had rather than live in vain and suffer in silence of the innocent souls.. I fell, I picked myself and carry on walking… though how much I wanted you to be there to pick me up, I know the truth...and I was glad I pulled u out of my life...Blessings come in many ways, often that is hard to say. For we may not truly knows as blessings come and go. To be blessed is better than to stress but blessings are always there for us to guess. So be glad you when you receive blessings cause blessed are the ones who've tried their best. "The darken clouds filled the lovely sky,Thoughts of you ran across my mind..As the wind began it's mighty blow, Senses of sadness felt across my soul..As the falling water descends the distance ground,Behind my window I heard the sound,Night came as I sat by my warming crouch,Knowing that a rainfall brings out drought,As I close my eyes and force myself to sleep,Images of you flashes within deep.Though the rain had washed my tears for you,It will never remove any love I feel.""A wish tonight for you I might, A wish on this sleepless night.A wish tonight to hold you tight, for you who makes my life so bright""The gentle wind awaits the morning sun, my thoughts for you had soon begun..Of all the dreams I dreamt of you, I hope it'll all come true...""For every pain you get, I will regret.For every smile you get, I won't forget.For everything you are, I will accept.For everyday its you, I can't reject!""I Love you are the simplest yet most beautiful, the shortest yet the most meaningful words I want to say to you. But it's what I feel."
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Tuesday, August 15, 2006
The Meaning of LOVE
Everyone knows the meaning of the word love, ask them and they will tell you it's a kind of feeling which you won't get much in your life, a kind of feeling which you never expect it to arrive. Stories of love pass us each day without realizing its existence in the first place. Sometimes we think we are in love, but the feeling becomes mutual as time goes by. Yet there are times when love passes us before you could even realize. Love is a feeling that stretches your emotion to the fullest. You'll feel the joy, the laughter, the warmness, the coldness, the loneliness, the attention, the neglecting, the kindness, the anxiety, the jealousy, the eagerness, the worries, the sadness and the happiness if you get love in return...' Love is an experience. You will experience the most wonderful times, the most stressful times and the most comforting times in life. If you look back, love goes with time. Without time, there won't be love.People often mislead the feeling of love when they think that it's 'love at first sight'. Maybe true, but it could be a case in a million. The rest could be the beauty of the opposite sex toying your heart and mind. I live my life in search of love. Someone who doesn't care about appearances, someone who don't mind your awful habits in bed, someone who is willing to take care of you throughout your worst time. Someone, who tries her very best to suit your life. I hope I had found that someone special...
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True Love
True love comes straight from the heart not the mind. It starts with a simple meeting with two people, from the first conversation comes the mutual respect. Soon, without realizing it, there's a feeling of likeness in the air. From likeness, it gradually grows to love. But true love does not end here. From love, there's commitment. The feeling stop you from starting any other possible cases of likeness with other people. The same feeling which get you back to the same person whom you have been sharing your life with. Many people never went to the stage of commitment, only to blame themselves later for never experiencing true love. If loving is easy, living your hectic life would be easier.Stories of love are being shared among us everyday, yet there aren't many of which we can remember. A love story comes from your own experience, not something that you've heard or seen. If there is one love story that you can ever remember in your life, it would be something that you had gone through..True love is a gift. Though finding it may be hard, keeping it is harder than anyone can imagine. We struggle through all our life in search of it, yet when we find it, it just disappear. Just like sand sipping your hands, never to return again. True love means happiness for your partner even if it means sufferings for you. As much as we would want to deny it, we do sacrifice for love. A simple give in during a heated argument can prevent harsh words being used and breaking of hearts. So next time when you think your partner is unreasonable, think again. You could make he/she less annoyed by giving in just this once. You may give in many, many times in your relationship but at least you know its worth the effort when the storm is over.True love will be tested one day, only then the declaration for one another is truthful. Temptations will always be there, there will always be someone nicer, younger or more beautiful than your current one. Only will that day tell your truthfulness towards your heart and your soul. The pureness of True Love is one thing that keeps people going, throughout their life. The simplest things that you do for her will get happiness in return. One sad thing about the pureness of True Love is the existence of temptation. Whether is it materialism or lust, people always find themselves stuck in a situation and therefore love died down in time...As far as I can see, we all yearn for that simple undying love that rumors to exist. Its out there somewhere, clouded by the deceiving facts of life and overshadowed by the logical mindset of humans. True Love exists deep down our hearts...
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Monday, August 14, 2006
Happy Sunday
It has been a long time since I had my lunch buffet with friends. This time was at Marina Mandarin. We reached there at around 1pm. The buffet starts from 12pm to 4pm. The buffet consists of "high class hawker food". Even though it was "high class hawker food", I still ate a lot. I was so full that I even skip my dinner. We had fun chatting and laughing. After knowing this group of friends, I think I laughed more than before. Thanks guys. You know who you are... (",)
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
An Early Night at DEVILS
The last time I went to Devils was many years back. Finally got the chance to go there again today. I met PY and his friends there. I told HB that I wanted to celebrate my next birthday here at Devils. And I all I need is to wait for another 6 more mths. =) At least I have something to look forward now... (",)
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Friday, August 04, 2006
What a GrEaT tImE....
I had a great time laughing and enjoying myself at HV Coffee Bean with Pat, PY and two of PY's friends. We talked and laughed a lot. From this coffee session, we tend to know more about one another. My mood wasn't that good recently, but after today session, I felt much better. Thanks guys. So now, I know who to look for when I'm feeling down. (",)
And not to forget, we took some photos before I left the session. I will post them once I received them. Thanks to the person who brought the camera. If not, we have to use our "lousy" mobile phone to take photos…. =)
And not to forget, we took some photos before I left the session. I will post them once I received them. Thanks to the person who brought the camera. If not, we have to use our "lousy" mobile phone to take photos…. =)
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